Well, this is extracted from my current friendster profile...but I decide to elaborate here...
I am currently on the journey of living my childhood aspiration. Frankly, I am not too sure why I want to go into teaching since secondary school life. Maybe it is just the passion...but passion arise from motivation. My guess is maybe the kind of feeling I get when I see those that I teach succeed. It is just fulfilling to see another soul being enlightened somewhat. Although life has not been smooth-sailing, I hope that I can graduate with a decent grade and really enjoy this job which is to be my rice bowl. God's willing.
Some people like me, some people hate me...but I guess that's what makes me, and each one of us, unique. I mean, I can't please everyone. One thing's for sure, I guess my actions are usually misinterpreted...in the negative sense. Nonetheless, thank you to all...for your existence in my life has helped me shape to the person I am today.
Life is fragile...I will never know when exactly the time is up for me, and those around me. As much as death is part of the life, it's not easily acceptable. In a short span of 6 weeks, my beloved grandfather (Dad's Dad) and my grandmother (Mum's Mum) passed away. ANd just recently, another of my close cousin's Dad passed away. I wonder if I am being slapped with a sign which I just can't realise from - with so many departure of those close to me. I hope I will receive enlightenment soon. And now I am enforced that it takes just a little show of love, to make a person's life worth living - easier said than done, but at least, give it a good try.
Sometimes I rise, sometimes I fall...but one thing I know, everything happens for a reason - nothing is coincidence, just providence. I have been taught and believe that my life is destined. All of what that is happening to me is written. It is difficult to believe that my life is scripted, but that's reality. One mistake (in my opinion) of those who realised such is to think that they decide to just sit back and slack...since life is already scripted. But then again, I guess that part of their life was written too.
I got to learn of a quote about a decade back and I just would like to share it here...
"Do not seek Death
For Death will come and find you
But seek for the road
That makes your Death, a fulfillment"
Basically, I just have to live life 'as per normal' and hope to die fulfillingly. Life...is perfect.
And I just would like to share the lyrics of this song. Somehow it affected me emotionally when my loved one departed and made me reflect upon the lyrics for quite some time.
RONAN KEATING - IF TOMORROW NEVER COMES
Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart
[CHORUS]
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel
[CHORUS]
SO TELL THAT SOMEONE THAT YOU LOVE
JUST WHAT YOU'RE THINKING OF
IF TOMORROW NEVER COMES